Very soon I will be having a baby! On this journey of birthing life I have ALREADY learned so much and I know that I haven’t even scratched the surface of biological motherhood and what it means to give birth. But there is one profound truth that is SO clear to me about birthing life, literally and figuratively. That truth is that I TRUST GOD.
I am a woman in my late 30s, black, lesbian, and unpartnered. I after years of visioning, researching, and planning I am having a son and blessed that my dear friend agreed to help me as a known donor and loving figure in our lives. I am grateful that my baby has been healthy and active throughout my pregnancy. I am grateful for the beauty of creating life and living life in all of its complexities. I TRUST GOD.
Since the time that I started trying to conceive (TTC), so many difficult things have happened in my personal and professional life, within my family, and in the world at large. And so much joy and goodness has unfolded as well! I have experienced the rising from the ashes, the coming together of all the things we tend to worry about, and the desires of my heart coming into reality. I TRUST GOD.
I trust God because I understand now how the bitter and the sweet both have their importance and how much we can learn in the ebb and flow of life. I see the divine order that is operating in my life, particularly as I enter a stage of my life where i will have far less control over what happens. In motherhood it is SO important that I TRUST GOD.
My pregnancy has been surrounded by SO much love and light. The excitement, prayers, support, and rallying of my loved ones to celebrate this moment really overwhelms me at times. This goodness can outweigh the trials that are sure to come and already have since I opened the door to birthing life. Indeed, I TRUST GOD and I am awed at the way that life is unfolding for me lately.
So far, the biggest, most beautiful part of birthing life is all of the love, joy, and warmth that baby and I share with the people around us. I can’t wait to share more about birthing the life of my sweet little BabyCakes! Right now I am full of gratitude for the magnanimous spirit of love that I am enjoying. I TRUST GOD, knowing that God’s good is enormous and that this goodness tempers all that life may bring my way.